Only Hope

School has not even started yet and i am already making mistakes as a small group leader. I ask myself...how will i be able to do this? And i hear the Lord replying..."well that's just it, you cannot do it yourself, trust me!"
And i believe that as humans it is so hard to trust in the Holy Spirit. We start to think, well what if i don't like this? what is going to happen? will i ever gather enough people? or a soul? I have learned a few things and all i can say is that i will try to let the Holy Spirit guide me. I think we are stubborn and get in the Holy Spirit's way. We need to relax and fill our life with prayer.
There are currently so many things going on in the spiritual realm. Many things back in Houston, and many things here. How can I keep up with such things? I fear falling into a pit where no one can get me out of my own stuborness, but i hope that such is not the case. I say I hope, because hope is really powerful. I can only Hope that such events will get better.