Experience Must come

Yesterday I was numb, and today I feel all the pain. And I tell God "please, please take this away from me." He is silent and I know that he knows what I am thinking. He asks me "are you ready to hear the truth? when will you listen?"

I turn away and I cry in my pillow because it is the only way I can relieve the hurt. I have no Elijah to turn to and I want him back. I want an Elijah to be by my side in these times but all i know is that it is my time to be alone.

August 11, of Oswald chambers "my utmost for his highest"

"It is not wrong to depend on Elijah as long as God gives him to you, but remember the time will come when he will have to go; when he stands no more to you as your guide and leader, because God does not intend you should. You say- "I cannot go on without Elijah." God says you must. "

I feel like I am in a battle without a shield, but I know that the opposite is true. The angels are starting to stir with our prayers...ready for the Command of the Almighty and all I know is that this pain is the cost for more of His glory. Experience must come, and it cannot come with Elijah by my side. It is a time to be selfless and to start thinking more about his kingdom, now I am Elisha, and all I can do is hold on to Elijah's cloak and trust the Lord with my prayers....