HERE I GO....GUATE!

I called my "mamita" yesterday. I call her mamita but in reality she is my grandmother. Her birthday was the 21st of febuary; I had not talked to mamita in such a long time. She almost made me cry during our talk. We talked about Papito (yes, my grandpa) and how he is really sick. I said, "Mamita, that is why i'm going to go to Guatemala this summer. Because if I don't go this year, who knows when I will be able to go again." She seemed very happy that I was going, after all I haven't been to Gaute for three years. Then she let me talk to papito. He said that he was feeling ill, that it did not look good. I felt helpless, what could I do? I told him him that I loved him and then I talked to mamita again. This time she started talking about how much of a good daugher I was. How my mother is always speaking well about me. Then she told me," aqui estamos orando por vos." I quickly said, "Thank you! Thank you for praying for me mamita." I know that she prays, I don't know what it is about old people, but I know enough to know that they can really pray.

The reason why I wanted to cry at hearing mamita speak that way about me, it's because barely last year all my family had a different mentality of me. Everytime I would call, or try talking to them, they seemed indifferent. They seemed as if they knew something about me that was not pleasant to them. I would hear rumors of mamita saying of how much I made my mom suffer, and how sorry she felt for her. I remember one time, a few months ago, I talked to mamita for the first time in months. She offended me, she did not know it, but she was offending me with her words. I remembered I cried that day...feeling betrayed by my own family.

But yesterday my mamita confirmed what my mother had been telling me for the past weeks. It is almost as if God has been using them to pour out love in my heart. After I called them , my mother called mamita, and mamita told her how much she had enjoyed talking to me.

I made a promise to mamita dn now I can't back out.
I'm going to Guate in early june...