forgiveness

There was onviously some resentment going on in my heart, and well, maybe there is still some. Forgiveness is something that is "easily said than done." I still remember the day when I had to forgive my dad. I had to suppress all that pridefullness and be the one who sent the first e-mail. I told him I forgaved him, as well as asking for forgiveness. When you forgive someone, you do not really think about the damage that you did to them as well. When they ask you for forgiveness, you should also ask for their forgiveness, because it takes "two to tango". Do you get it? It takes two persons or plus to make a problem. It is not just at the fault of one, many times we try to blame it on just one person. "this person was the cause of this!! Why did he/she do that?" Yes, we can judge all we want...oh yes. I'm not gonna lie; I like doing that. I am flesh, am I not? Yet, let us not be selfish to never accept the other person's apology, as well as let us not be a hypocrit by saying "I forgive you", when in reality you still feel remorse.

15But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
Matthew

This is scary. I think sometimes we like to be the judge of the world. And we like to say, "if only the whole world will think like I do, everything would be less dramatic, less problematic". Yea, what we do not realize is that we are usually the ones who overreact, or is not willing to submit to the Lord. If we don't forgive....God will not forgive me??? That's harsh. That just goes to show you how much our selfishness takes a hold of us.

Many times my flesh gets a hold of me. It takes real humility to lay down our lives before the Chirst, it takes the Cross to get us back into righteousness. Not forgiving is definitely a stumbling block to holiness. How can we see our brother/sister suffering of true repentance, and yet be so prideful that we cannot submit ourselves to the Lord and forgive? How selfish is that???? It happens too many times....too many times....
My dad replied to that message last year. He did not ask for forgivness. It really hurt, but at least I know that I forgave, and that I asked before it was too late. After two e-mails he stopped replying. He never contacted me again. I really do not know where he's at right now, for all I know he might be dead. I still love him, I loved him enough to let him know that I forgave him before it was too late.