The Grip of Satan

I am supposed to be doing homework, or going to sleep. But I cannot sleep withouth writing it down. Latley I have been talking to my mother about spiritual subjects. Slowly, I am getting to the point in which I am trusting her with the desires of my heart. Today I asked a simple question which led to a discussion. I asked, "Mom would you support me if Iwent into full time ministry?" She stayed quiet only for a second, and then she replied, "If it is a calling then what can I do?" Then for some reason we started talking about marriage. It led to my father once again. She told me that she could remember the first time she spoke in tounges and how my dad interpreted. She could remember how she had the translation for the tounges, but how she had so much Fear of the Lord that she was too intimidated to speak. She said my father helped her develop that part of her gift. As I heard her say all these things I was amazed of how much I did not know about their past. I realized that all this time I had been thinking that my parent's marriage was a mistake. That it should have never happened....oh but how wrong I was! It was God's will, and it was for his glory that my parent's marriage was working for. Unfortunatley, satan intervened, and was able to destroy what it once had been fruitful for the Lord. What really pierced my soul was when she told me, "Michel, that is what makes me sad. That now I cannot go back and do all those things that I used to do with your father."

I don't know why, but when she said that I understood her completley. I understood what she had lost, and I understood why it is so hard for her to let go. Because it was a ministry. It was a ministry that had been destroyed by satan. I told her that my desire was to have that kind of ministry...that I know it would be hard, but that I desire that with all my heart. I feel sad for my mother, because the grip of evil was able to destroy the anointing that my father had. She lost her guidance, or her spiritual guidance from him. She saw how he became a pathetic slave to sin, how his life went from being in Spiritual Authority to being entangled with death.

I think there is nothing more fulfilling than seeing people get saved, or coming back to the Lord. That is what I want my life to be about. And I pray....that whomever will lead me in marriage, will be strong in the Lord. That his pride might not make him fall, that satan's grip cannot get a hold of him. In the name of Jesus, I pray, amen.