DETOX

It's 6 in the morning but I have not been able to sleep much. The reason? No worries, no insomnia, just a splitting headache. It might actually be a migraine, but I have never had one so i cannot tell the difference. Tossing and turning in my bed i lay worried thinking, should i quit my fasting? This is the third day of a three day fast i am currently going through. I get up every few hours because since last night around 11 pm my head starting taking its toll and the pain that crushes my brain has not stopped. In all honesty i thought it was a sign that my body was telling me to quit. There is no dizziness, no weakness, just a massive headache.

When I first wake up after a weak attempt to sleep I ask Sonia to pray for me. She prays; she goes back to sleep. I try...but i can't I wake up and think ' maybe i should pray and read the word'. I read acts up till chapter 9 and cannot continue because the sharp pain stops me. I have prayed and the hurting is still there. I go back to sleep and actually succeed but only for a few hours. I wake up again at 5:30ish. This time i turn on my computer on and google "headaches and fasting". It turns out that headaches are just a symptom of detoxification; your body is getting clean and sometimes during the first or second days of a fast you can experience headaches. Some of your major organs, especially the liver, have time to rest and have more time to concentrate on getting the 'bad' stuff out your system. Many people fast for health reasons...that was a bit of a surprise for me. Not for religion, but for health. As I am writing this right now I am thinking about the 'detoxification' that apparently is taking place in my body. I cannot help but correlate it to our very own lives. There is a need to detoxify our lives, but how many times do we halt to rest and stop what we're doing to let our spiritual organs rest? But watch out...if you decide to all of a sudden rest you will be tempted to quit because you start worrying. You start thinking about life. You cannot rest because you are used to having something to do every day, whether it be studying or working. It's so tempting to DO something instead of nothing! And that is exactly what detoxification does...it lets you do nothing for the sake of your sanity.

Brokenness cannot come without hardship. During the first two days of the fast i was fine. I would certainly get hungry and sometimes dizzy but never did I have a lingering headache until today. When you start resting from the World for the first few moments you will find it satisfying, even worthwhile. But there will come a time when Jesus begins to draw you near Him, and what can I say? You either let him deal with the ugly...or you quit. Oh that we may all recognize when the Lord is detoxifying our very own lives. Detox only comes through willingness.

"The Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak"